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Stereotypes... The jaded cowboy... The all-knowing wizard... The eternally youthful child, sweetness and tantrums and deceits... Mary Sues (learnt this from my sis)... and those of us who believe in being the characters who break out of the mold (a mold in itself?)... Having to spend much time next to such stubborn disconnections from reality is an experience that is very.. disconcerting.

But we've been holding on to these pictures of ourselves for decades and decades of civilisation, haven't we? TV dramas and reality shows only propagated a trend that seems to be integral to human behaviour... There was an article in the papers about how teenagers these days are becoming disconnected from themselves... Like watching themselves act their own parts out in a show, never being there themselves, never progressing emotionally... I wonder if I have suffered from this for awhile now, or if it's just my imagination... Is it worse if it's just my imagination? That'd mean that I imagine that I'm watching myself act as myself? Moving on...

Taking a little time out of the little time that I have before my Bio paper on monday to reflect... I'm not angry anymore...finally. I guess there's somebody else I owe that too... Thanks, though it'd take forever for me to find the guts to tell it to you straight.

.. I say it like that, but in retrospect, I am still scared.

Odd though, that the person I trusted most easily, ends up no.1 on the list of people not to. And maybe it isn't. I'm generally too self-conscious or unconfident to give any sort of soothsayer's advice... but... If there's any archetype that fits, then she is the Child. And because of that, I can understand you're decision to continue with her, because children can be very charming and very loving.

They are also many a time, capricious and cruel and wild, especially if no one is firm with them. That is my opinion.

My brother's been shouting and banging the table because some enchantress is owning him. Dammit. I want my own room so I can think and read and play games and stone and watch pornography undisturbed.

Wild Arms 1 is one of the coolest RPGs. ever. The music rocks.