In Your Own Words

Does one tend to feel pressured during GP exams to write the 'right' way, or write about the 'proper' things, give the textbook answers and the same redundant ideas that get recycled in essay after essay, or AQ after AQ?

Perhaps the problem is further compounded by the fact that one has not even mastered the so-called 'redundant' techniques yet, and is already trying to jot it all down on the paper before the timer hits zero?

At the end of the paper, I didn't quite get either my essay or my AQ finished, but I began to feel as if I was starting to write something that was more 'mine' before the time ran out.

It's like my first instinct when time runs out is to rush to something that I think that the examiners will want to read about, like how poverty can be kept in check because of rising availability of education and how globalisation is good because MNCs provide jobs and all that. Might it be my first instinct in other areas of life as well?

Perhaps the most desirable answer, and the most self-satisfying one as well, is the answer that stems from one's own personality and flair and experiences when put into context with the question. But will one be able to find that answer when one's overwhelming desire is to utter the words that are most pleasing to another? Does one become most attractive to others when one stops caring about or trying to conform to look good in front of them? Am I at my best, both inside and outside, when to some extent, I stop giving a shit? And how do you know that you're not conforming on a subconscious level, or is that enough?

While I'm writing the story of my life, I hope it doesn't turn out like this: Sometimes something fantastic comes along, and you don't feel like you're worth it.